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Hi All, For years and years I've desperately wanted B/A as I was a small A cup and hated my body. I'm tall and have wide hips so wanted to look womanly and fill out nice clothes etc. I had a few consults, picked Cosmedi Tour and was added to their forum where I saw hundreds of posts from girls immediately after their augmentation saying how they were ALREADY in love!!!! I was so so excited and just knew I'd get the same feeling. I was told in my first ever consult by a very well known PS that he would give me 380cc round unders to help me achieve my dream look. Cosmedi Tour PS, however, said this would never fit my dimensions, look very fake, and increased the risk of CC, rippling, and double bubble so we settled for 330cc mod plus tear drops to give me a natural look while. I was still quite happy with this although really wished I could have gone 375cc tear drops ideally. But I didn't want to take any risks. Leading up to the day of I had these nightmares that I would wake up from the surgery, look in the mirror and see my old boobs on my chest, but be in a lot of pain and have the scars from the surgery and the surgeons telling me 'yes of course we put the implants in, they look great'. So I was clearly nervous the size was going to be way too small. On the day of my surgery I got into my gown and sat in the consult room minutes before hopping on the table and they said they had re-assessed and I was not a good candidate for 330cc either and they brought in 295cc tear drops. I had about 2 minutes to say yes and had no idea what my options were so just said 'Well I'll trust you then, I guess put in the 295's". The surgery went smoothly, I recovered well and got home, was so excited to see the results and had a look straight away, and my worst nightmare had come true. I saw nothing but a little swelling and basically other than that.. my old boobs were still there. Everyone assured me that with time, patience and dropping and fluffiing they will look amazing.. but I don't see how a 175cm tall girl getting under 300cc moderate profile implants will really look that different when all other girls I see with 290's are tiiinyyy girls with slim tiny bodies and they still just look very proportionate. BUT I managed to stay positive, and held up an old bra against my body and saw the difference, I've kept a smile on my face and hoped for the best since then. My B/A was 5 days ago now. Today I can not stop crying. I wish I'd had more time to think and ask for the 345cc high profile implants, as they have the same length and width but a cm more in profile which I have seen on a girl with roughly my stats and they looked amazing, but I never had the time or information to do this and feel like I've made a big mistake. Maybe I could've gone rounds, or over the muscle instead, so I could get a bigger size to make it worth it, who knows!!! I've spent my life's savings on these things and even took out a small loan to make up for what I didn't have. I put all hope of my happiness into them and expected to be thrilled like all the girls on the forum. Instead, I am so sore, in so much pain, can barely see a difference, and broke. I am so upset. I'm not sure if it's because my mum went home today and I am now home alone, or if it is because today is the first day I haven't taken pain medication, or if the way I feel is completely warranted. Anybody who has been through this I would love your advice. What did you do? Did you pay another few thousands and wait for the 1 year to go bigger, or did you deal with it, or did this emotional state pass? Please help Thank you!!!